Beast

There is a consistent drumming in my head

Loud, clanging, steady

It matches my every heartbeat

Before I even know it has happened again

it claims me

Beating in tandem I am not at all confused

I am not hypnotized 

I am aware to the point of clarity

Inside I am changing,

I'm moving away from the girl I have so 

carefully crafted

The years of learning what is acceptable to present

My surface is splitting as the fiery core of who I am

rises up and claims what is hers

I would let you

I would kneel for you in complete trust

The drumming of my heart only gains strength 

with the thought of you spinning me

Pinning me against the wall and holding me there

I want to be paralyzed and have every choice taken away

I want all you have to give and even what you think I can't take

I want you to try to break me 

because I know you never will

Bound by you, to you, for you

You know what it takes to release me

Help me so I am not destroyed

Please take away my choices and let me serve you

I will be lost without you taking

the snarling black and stopping it from

crawling and giving buoyancy to more of 

my usual thoughts

Fuck me, I need you to let me taste you