I whisper your name to break the silence
I'm resigned to you now
Imagination gives me what I want
It makes you tower above me, my protection
I must remind myself to breathe when I'm around you
I must force the air back out of my lungs
For in that exchange I am home
My hand slides into yours effortlessly
I stand and feel the warmth of your hand
on the small of my back, guiding me, leading me
My breath catches as you slide your arm around me and pull me into you
Pressing my body into yours
My heart pounds in my ears like a storm
Waves crash in my belly
You are my shore
It is terrifying to touch you
sadness, longing, guilt
heat
desire
I am glowing just being near you
Needing to drown in you
Please just brush my lips with your finger
Please just touch my neck
Please, just, please
I could make you happy,
I could make you love me,
I could disappear completely.
- "Do You Sleep" Mary Lambert