Daddy's Girl

Laying here alone in our bed and I just want you here. Want is consumig me baby and I know I shouldn't, I know I'm supposed to save every bit of my pleasure for you only; but I am burning alive. I am wet and my nipples ache to be touched, and pinched, and licked. I know I'm lalone but I'm only thinking of you, only you. So I close my eyes and start to let go. 

Running one hand over my breasts, feeling my nipples harden. I suck on my fingers so they are ready to slide between my legs. Spreading my lips I start rubbing my clit. I can feel my pussy getting wetter and I want to feel your cock in me. I want to feel you fucking me so hard that my pussy is wrecked and even just thinking about your dick sliding into me again and again makes me arch my back and thrust my hips into my hand. 

I want you here so badly. I want to keep rubbing my clit and also feel your cock using my mouth like a cunt. My fingers move harder and faster, my clit is on fire and I want to cum. I want to feel this fire over all my skin, I want to let go and feel wave after wave of pleasure. So I think of you. I think of your cock sliding over my tongue. Tasting the salt of you as you fill my throat so I can't breathe. 

Finally, fuck yes, finally. My body takes over and heat flares up. My pussy is dripping and I cry out as I violently cum soaking the bed. 

 

Masturbation Monday

Musings 4

 

Realizations

It's funny the more I come into my truth the more I can see it was always there. I just denied myself or felt shame. 

Shame is the killer of our spirit. 

I am a baby girl who needs a Daddy Dom. I'm not a little or a slave, he is my Daddy. Yes I obey him. Yes I let him guide me. But I don't do it because I'm afraid of punishment, even though that could happen, I do it because he loves me so very much. I do it because Daddy knows how desperately I need to feel protected. I do it because Daddy makes me feel safe. 

My collar calms me. My blindfold helps me feel peace. My restraints keep me present in whatever expierence He is leading me through. 

The soft strokes from the flogger center my scattered thoughts. 

The shock and resounding sting from the riding crop push my brain until I'm just barely holding on. 

Then the smack of his hand on my ass. The delicious feel of his skin on mine. The warmth that spreads across my ass gains footing in every inch of my body. 

Daddy knows exactly when I have finally let go.  He knows when my brain has finally shut down and given me peace. He knows when I'm ready to give myself to him body and soul. 

This is when he gives me the perfect gift and fucks his baby girl until I am a quivering mess begging him to let me cum. And when he says "yes" I am wholly his with the explosion of my body. 

 

Envy

God I love you

I know that I always have

From before this version on my soul drew her first breath

I have loved you

It is as if you are a sold and tangible part of me

As if I am unable to feel whole without you

No one can help me

I'm drowning in your truth

In my truth this time 

Because I can never let you know

It is a painful place to be

Comstantly feeling like I will never be yours

Thinking I can never

Say to you what is in my heart, my mind

My soul, my sex

I can never truly let you in

Not all the way

Because then I will lose you

And I can't lose you

It would be like tearing my skin off my body and 

My pound of flesh given

I tearing in my brain, a split, schism 

Seeing you love her, hearing the devotion you have

Knowing there is nothing I could ever do to change that

Knowing how happy I am for you

Because I am genuinely so

Because even though I want you all to myself

Wrapped up in me

There is no rock or hard place

There is no silver lining

This. Just. Is. 

I love you. 

I love you. 

I love you. 

I love you..

Collar

 

Damè

I whisper your name to break the silence

I'm resigned to you now

Imagination gives me what I want

It makes you tower above me, my protection

I must remind myself to breathe when I'm around you

I must force the air back out of my lungs

For in that exchange I am home

My hand slides into yours effortlessly 

I stand and feel the warmth of your hand

on the small of my back, guiding me, leading me

My breath catches as you slide your arm around me and pull me into you

Pressing my body into yours

My heart pounds in my ears like a storm

Waves crash in my belly

You are my shore

It is terrifying to touch you

sadness, longing, guilt

heat

desire

I am glowing just being near you

Needing to drown in you

Please just brush my lips with your finger

Please just touch my neck

Please, just, please

Is it real, this thing?

I could make you happy,

I could make you love me,

I could disappear completely. 

     - "Do You Sleep" Mary Lambert

 

Estoy celoso

 Estoy celoso , muy celoso , pero no tienen derecho a ser.

Quiero ser ella.